Yesterday's news was truly devastating. As a Christian woman, I found myself angry and conflicted. I believe that everyone should choose life, but I was still upset and outraged.
Let me explain why...
First off, this post is not for men, brother I see you and I love you; but this isn't about you right now.
This post is for the women of America. Black, White, Hispanic, Asian, no matter what race you identify as this is for you.
It doesn't matter if you are like me, a woman of the Christian faith; or are an Agnostic, an Atheist, a Buddhist, etc. This post is for you and I pray that you read this post all the way to the end.
God spoke to me about this back in May, way before yesterday's decision; and I'm not gonna lie, I was scared of what would happen when I posted this and the outrage that may ensue as a result.
But, as I was reading my devotional and having my quiet time with the Lord; all of these feelings began to rise up within me. I was outraged and angry. I was worried because I am a woman and this decision affects me as well.
However, the reason this post exists is that in the midst of all those feelings I wanted to hear what God thought.
Like, what does HE say about this topic? Not the Justice system, not the millions of people on the internet, but HIM.
So I asked Him…
“My heart breaks for the teenage mother who gets pregnant without any help in sight. My heart breaks for the rape victim, whether incest or not. My heart breaks for the woman who has lost her stillborn baby. My heart breaks for the woman who may feel like it just isn't her time yet and her circumstances may feel less than perfect.
Yet, My Heart still breaks.
Oh, My Heart.
Hear My Heart.
I never wanted it to be this way; this was never My Plan for you, daughter.
This was never My Plan for you sweet girl.
I’m so sorry that you have to go through this. I hope that you feel Me drawing near to you; I hope that you hear My Heart when I say this:
I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU!
This will NOT break you.
You are called to SO much more than this.
The world may not understand you, but I understand you.
My power will be made perfect in your weakness.
You are SO loved!”
“Jesus answered him, “What I am doing you do not understand now, but afterward you will understand.”
- John 13:7 ESV
I was angry because this broke my heart. Seeing all of these women across my timelines breaking down is truly devastating.
I am taking a month-long hiatus from social media, so I was late in hearing the news yesterday, but when I found out about it I was heartbroken.
How could someone that believes that a woman should choose life, be heartbroken?
Because, as hard as this may be for some people to process, my hope is found in Jesus.
The term "choosing life" is bigger than the topic of abortion.
Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.
- John 14:6
Choosing life means choosing Jesus. He is the only sure thing that we have in this life.
Because man will always fail us. But God will never fail us.
I can put my trust in Him and I know that He will do what it is that He said that He will do, even when my situations and the circumstances around me don't make any sense and I have lost all hope in humanity.
As much as I want to place my hope in the Justice system of America, and as badly as I want to believe that the "people in charge" will look at the struggles of Americans and suddenly decide to do the right thing; I simply cannot.
Women, hear me.
It's hard being a woman, and it's hard being a black woman, or woman of color, in America.
But, listen to me...
YOU ARE SO STRONG!
I see you out here killing it, out here working 9 to 5 *Dolly Parton voice*, being an entrepreneur, being unemployed (whether you can't work, or you're out of work, or you're a stay-at-home mom or wife, etc.), taking care of yourselves, your husband/kids (if that's the season of life you're in), your mental health, etc. Whatever you are doing, I see you and I'm so proud of you.
...and guess what else?
God sees you and is SO proud of you!
I pray if you don't already understand this, you will understand that when everything starts to seem hopeless and anger, fear, and panic start to arise within you; You can put your hope in the fact that God is always working.
He sees you, He loves you, and He remembers you.
You can trust that He is working to bring about His perfect plan, and where man may fail us, God will not.
I love you all so much,
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